I was going to write a really long entry about how useless, pretentious, and unabashedly hypocritical you are; then i realized that i couldn't think of what to say. i thought this was because it was too late at night, or that i was too burned out from exams; but then i realized that trying to say something substantial about someone so insignificant, so intellectually anodyne, would be impossible. i will say this though: i'm really pissed. what you've said, what you've done, is beyond forgiveness, if i actually did forgive in the first place. your actions alone are deplorable and derisible; but it's your whole damn attitude to certain events that just shows how ignorant you are to your mediocrity. did you even bother explaining yourself? no. did you even care what other people thought? no. do you even deserve the benefit of the doubt? i don't fucking think so. the way you're behaving and acting, you will amount to nothing, and will end up alone, despised, and ultimately forgotten. you have no talent, no intellect, and not even one shred of legitimate ambition in the ossified clump of dead matter that passes for your brain. that in itself is nothing to be ashamed of; but the fact that you dare to think you actually
matter? Honestly, you don't, and you won't, ever.
I would like to think that there is some explanation for what you're doing, and that somehow my opinions are wrong. But the thing is, you've never actually had a good reason for any of the self-destructive, self-indulgent things you've done over the time i've known you. You don't actually learn anything from your mistakes and your flaws, except for how to exacerbate them the next time round.
I'm trying very hard not to reveal who you are, but I think that it's pretty much obvious by now, because there are really very few people with your unique combination of unfounded narcissism and pompous stupidity. i really hope you die early, because frankly, the high point of your life was most probably when you learned to walk. maybe that was the only time you actually applied yourself to something.
No one feels bad for you. No one even gives a crap what you think or say, because it's just become fantastically jejune to hear you go on and on about your pathetic life and its equally pathetic foibles. I've just wasted a perfectly good 'jejune' on you. I've also wasted half an hour and a blog entry. Then again, if I hadn't typed this out I probably would have done something destructive.
I truly, honestly, hate you. Yes, I'm being judgmental. Now go fuck off and die.
taika told you a secret at
6:27 PM
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taika told you a secret at
10:51 PM
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Response to a ravenous crocodile
for no one in particular, maybei've realized
that if you constantly press
enter at
random
in
ter
vals
you can turn prose
into poe
try.
now you know the secret
! now get typ-
ing
so that you may
sell poetr
y
too.
-2008
taika told you a secret at
11:26 AM
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sometimes i like to imagine i have superpowers, just so i can picture burning all the people i don't like alive or sucking their brains out through their ears or growing finger on their knees or something. although, according to the law of diminishing marginal utility, i'd eventually grow tired of it. maybe even feel bad about it. sometimes i wonder if it's better to not have enough of something and just keep on lusting after it, or to have so much of it that you feel bloated. yes, this occurs to me mostly when im eating sashimi. or pasta. or ramen. speaking of sashimi, ive realized that uni is pretty good, although i suspect only the best japanese restaurants can do it well. just like fugu, which i am yet to try.
that was my attempt at a blog entry.
taika told you a secret at
7:42 PM
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okay maybe i should try to blog more.
tomorrow.
taika told you a secret at
8:24 PM
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i have realized that i actually really like salads. it's been a season for new things, eh.
meow.
taika told you a secret at
8:11 PM
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There's part in me you'll never know
The only thing I'll never show
Hopelessly I'll love you endlessly
Hopelessly I'll give you everything
But I won't give you up
I won't let you down
And I won't leave you falling
If the moment ever comes
It's plain to see it's trying to speak
Cherished dreams forever asleep
Hopelessly I'll love you endlessly
Hopelessly I'll give you everything
But I won't give you up
I won't let you down
And I won't leave you falling
If the moment ever comes
Hopelessly I'll love you endlessly
Hopelessly I'll give you everything
But I won't give you up
I won't let you down
And I won't leave you falling
But the moment never comes
-Muse
taika told you a secret at
4:44 PM
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